uh another dream about conflict between me and her
it started from a small thing at the drive thru the lady couldn't hear her and she got ticked off and then when i was gonna tell her the rest of what i wanted (grandma) she got all bent out of shape and chewed me out TT_TT
if it wasn't that she keeps nagging at me about vacuuming the stairs in the basement
i cant do it due to no outlets that will not switch the fuse off
so she got an attitude and said take the dog for a walk
well im tired
how would u feel getting up at 5:15 everyday on weekdays just to sit in the car for 3 hours and then deliver food to old people and then go to the mall sit in a class room for 4 hours on a computer doing senior English with a 15 mins break with no time to eat or just a light lunch with a very light breakfast
add the insomnia and stress that carried over from school
add the smart comments and the frequent complaining and mood swings
don't u think u would feel overly tired at least at ur breaking point since I've been going thru this for about 4 years now and i cant argue my out and if i tell her like i did before where can i go
she gave me the option to leave but where huh?
i mean i cant go here and there without her bickering about what i wear or what i eat down to the very detail of my shoes
and she expects me to do everything and let her just sit there and budget or puts blankets and tape up to every door and every window and its June
JUNE! going into July
she has a problem and she wont admit
even her doctor told her but she again snapped out on the doctor
and now im here still trying but my patience is slowly running out
i cant take it as a grain of salt anymore
i really need to leave more than anything
before she breaks me

well since summer school isn't long and its in the mall im soo happy that next year i get to graduate
yup i do
now i need a job to lower some costs of college
and stuff
well i lost alot of wieght thanks to fasting away from foods that are not soo good
and to excising blah blah
but cuz of that i feel alittle more confident inside
so maybe ill save up for a good camera to take some stock^^
but other than that maybe someday i'll find a great guy maybe someday over the rainbow
where lolipops and unicorns run free
lol kiddin

well im not the only one in singing the blues
wishing for heaven to release its blessings
well if its not one thing its something here
all my friends are now coming back to try to help but still im trapped inside a box that is no longer a cage
inside a box its dark lonely and more restrictive
in a cage u can see and reach out and walk around
but lately her menopause is getter more painful to bare the aggression and sudden mood changes
im not used to someone who is nice and sweet and then all of a sudden
mean and very sour like a Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde thing going on
she even more OC lately and more nitpicking at everything to type of jeans i wear to the lint on my shirt to how long im on the computer working
im not addicted to it its very old and very very slow
i mean slow as 7 year old XP e-machine old>_>
with a broken CD Drive still

all i want is a piece of heaven
a ticket going anywhere but hell Michigan or hell itself
all i want is a break from here from her unpleasantness
and her extreme mood swings that seem to be like a roller-coaster going at a high speed coming off the track........

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should i do a tutorial next time or should i do a game play??????

X3 yaaay the summer is now here
and time to start on some crazy stuff^^
are you guys excited?